You're still in the middle of your story. 

There is hope. You can't change the past. But you can start now and write a completely different future.

 You get to choose what comes next. You are powerful. You can change the narrative. Don't waste time regretting what has happened in your story so far. Make space for grief, if you need to. Allow yourself to feel the loss. Then, decide what comes next. Decide how it ends. 

“Everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms—to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one’s own way.” Victor Frankl